ROHAN's Life

Selena Gomez

2010-06-26T11:13:00.000-07:00

2009-12-30T09:48:00.000-08:00

love.....this story touched my heart so i'm posting it here...

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl. Jin, do you want to go watch a movie? I asked. Jin "I can't" Why? You need to study at home?I felt disappointment grabbing me. No I am going to meet a friend He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word "love" only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say "I love you" before. To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all. He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days,200 days. Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why.

Then one day... Me Um, Jin, I... Jin What?don't drag, just say.. Me I love you. Jin you...um, just take this doll and go home. That was how he ignored my three words and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many... Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But ...lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark he still didn't call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily. Me Jin... Jin Here...take this... Again, he handed me a little doll. Me What's this? Jin I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I'm going home now, bye.

Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is? Jin Today? Huh? I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. when I shouted..."Wait..." Jin You have something to say? Me Tell me, tell me you love me... Jin What?! Me Tell me I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left. "I don't want to say that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else." That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb...and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily...How could he!. I felt that... Maybe he is not the right guy for me...

After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn't call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That's how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that... I saw him on a street...with another girl... He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll... I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell... Why did he gave these to me?? Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls. In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.

Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that it's going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll. Jin Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came? I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual Me I don't need it. Jin What?.why? I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road. Me I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!

I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking. "I'm sorry..." He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll... Me You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!! ........
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then... Honk Honk With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him. "Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted.... But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
"Jin, move!" HONK!! *Boom!*
That sound, so terrifying.
That's how he went away from me.
That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me. After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him. And after spending two months like a crazy person I took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out.

I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days- when we were in love.. "One...two... three..." That was how I started to count the dolls... "Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..." It all ended with 485 dolls. I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you,
I love you"
I dropped the dolls,shocked.
"I...lo..ve..you??"
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you
I love you"
It can"t be! I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you"
"I love you"
"I love you"
Those words came out non-stop.
"I love you" Why didn't I realize that???.
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn't I realize that he love me this much... I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much....

"Jo...Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you..... Um... since I was too shy. If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you..
Everyday...till I die.. Jo... I love you!"
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute. For that.. and for that reason... to me..... it became courage... to live a beautiful life...

2009-12-15T12:39:00.000-08:00

Bheed me Ek ajnabi ka saamna achcha laga
Sab se chhup kar woh kisi ka dekhna achcha laga.

Surmai aankhon ke neechay phool se khilnay lagay
Kehtay kehtay kisi ka sochna achcha laga

Baat to kuch bhi nahi thi lekin uska ek dum,
Haath ko honton pe rakh kar rokna achcha laga.

Chaay mein cheeni milana us gharee bhaaya bahut,
Zer-e-lub woh muskurata “Shukriya” achcha laga.

Dil mein kitnay bahane bante they bhulanay ke usay,
Woh mila to sab iraday torna achcha laga.

Use jaan k ya rab main bura kaisay kahon,
Jab bhi aaya samnay woh bewafa achcha laga.....

2009-12-14T14:20:00.001-08:00

WRONG NUMBER

It was the day of my son's XII results and I was so tensed.
I sat beside him while he logged on the website with his registration no.
"Ma", he screamed in excitement,
"I scored 1191, with centum in 4 subjects."
I can't believe it. "I kind of became numb in my excitement.
My eyes became wet. I kissed him on his forehead and smiled."

Soon we realized that he stood first in the state.
Oh, my joy knew no bounds when Reporters and media persons
soon swamped my house for interviews and photos. I was so honored to join him in the snaps.

I wanted to call my "wrong-number-friend" to tell him the news......
I was so excited. He was someone whom I have known for more than 20 years.

I still do not remember when we became friends,
but certainly cannot forget the first day he called me
When I blasted him for giving me so many wrong calls.....
After that he had called up a week later
asking apology, for he had now got the right no of his
friend whom he wanted to talk to .We spoke for an hour
that day...even without knowing each other's names.
Though he kept pestering me to reveal my name I never
did and so he kept a name...Sweety. I used to get so
shy whenever he called me 'Sweety'. I was doing first
year of BSc. Maths then, and he was a Computer Engineering student.

From then he used to call me very often. We almost
discussed everything ..

By the final year of my college, we probably we were in love,
but I had been cautious. I was in a dilemma
whether to tell him. But what if he was of a different
religion? Do I have the courage to talk to my parents
about it? ........all these questions ran through my mind.

I decided I'll not talk to him thereafter. When he
called next time I lied to him I that I was going to
Delhi for my post graduation. He gave me his office
number and asked me to ring him up once I reach there.
I never called .......

A couple of months later my marriage got fixed with a
guy of my parent's choice. I was not happy but I did
not complain; rather accepted it as an obedient
daughter. At times I felt I missed my wrong- number-
friend.......

My hubby was a moody person; I have hardly spent any
good time with him- but he was genuine indeed and
never bothered my personal space. After 2 years we had
a boy...Yet, I was not very happy with my married
life...One day I happened to browse through my diary
and found I still had my old friend's office phone no
that he had given me. I dialed it and spoke with him.
He said he was married and got a kid too. I was happy
for him though in the bottom of the heart I felt bad
that I could not marry him.

From then I used to occasionally call him on that
number. I never gave him mine as I felt that would put
me in trouble... And till today I almost shared
everything with him including my relationship with my
hubby.....today I was so happy and I wanted to call
him.

Just then I got a call. "Your husband met with an
accident and died on the spot"

I banged the phone down. I broke. I did not call my
friend.....I somehow started feeling guilty. I have
never tried to talk to him properly when he was alive
or moved close with him.... I felt I had been a bad
wife........

A couple of years passed and one day my son brought
home a Bengali girl and said they wanted to get married.
I got them married as I did not want my son
to go through what I did.

I decided to give my son his father's room and started
clearing it. There was a phone book. I gently opened
it to find,

"Wrong no. Sweety - 26579785" !!!!!

God always puts the right numbers together. It's us who interpret it wrong!!!!!

--
Rohan

find your love attitude number:

2009-12-14T14:13:00.001-08:00

To find your love attitude number:

add your birth month and your
birth date together.
Keep reducing it until it's a single digit.

Example:
January 28
1+28 = 29
2+9 = 11
1+1 = 2;
your love attitude number is 2.

Read on below to find out

what your love style is supposed to be.

1

You are charming imaginative and independent. Usually your style is
ahead of others; you know what's in and what's way out.
Sometimes you're a little too aggressive when it comes to
pursuing a love interest. You have a way of drawing attention
wherever you go,and this dramatic flair usually attracts the strongest guys.
Your competitive nature either draws or repels guys/gals...
but those who can't handle your power aren't your types anyway.
At times you can be possessive, manipulating and demanding
with your friends and in love relationships. You like guys/gals with lots
of intelligence... and knock-'em-dead good looks don't hurt either.

2

Your love nature is sentimental, romantic and kind. Your easygoing,
mild manner allows almost everyone to feel very comfortable with
you -especially shy guys/gals. Your modesty and tact enable you
to get along easily with both sexes. You are a natural peacemaker
and can be very persuasive with words, which helps you to
gain the respect of your classmates. You can also be too sensitive
at times, and your greatest drawback is a lack of confidence to
stand up for yourself in conflict. Your favorite type of guy is
a gentle, affectionate one who is also strong and playful.
A great sense of humor is also a must. A guy/gal who loves to listen
to music and dance should rank high on your list of favorites, too.

3

You are imaginative, fun-loving, thrill-seeking and expressive.
You're so charming that you attract many friends and you are almost
never lacking guys/gals. In your earlier years, you may be totally
shy and self-conscious, but you'll lose those qualities in the
high-school years. You can be sort of vain or even a bit of a
show-off when you get caught up in exciting events in your life, but
you usually redeem yourself in some playful way before you lose a
friend. Jealousy shows its ugly head sometimes, but generally you
aren't affected by it unless your guy/gal tries to provoke it. In
the guy/gal department, you prefer the athletic or artistic types.
You're in absolute heaven when you find both of those qualities in
the same guy/gal. When you're looking for love, a guy/gal who can
make you laugh scores points, big time!

4

You tend to be loyal, dedicated and good hearted. You're one of the
most diligent students when you really try, and you tend to make
your schoolwork a priority. You also express those same qualities in
your love relationship. No one is more faithful and trusting than
you. In fact, those tendencies can be a little negative in your
romantic life. You may sometimes hang on too long to a guy/gal who
doesn't give you the respect and love you deserve. You can be
stubborn and a bit of a troublemaker if the mood strikes you but you
can usually dig yourself out of that hole just in time to stay out
of major trouble. You usually fall for extremes when choosing a love
mate - he/she may be a show-off or a teacher's pet. Whatever the
type, it helps if he/she is good-looking, too, but that's not a
major consideration for you.

5

Your love attitude is adventurous, charismatic and spontaneous.
You’re creative and adaptable, and you can come up with the most
exciting and sometimes daring things to do. Your quick intelligence
and way with words help get you out of the problems that come with
being flirtatious and playing hard to get. You need to pay close
attention to your personal values because you love to try new and
different things and easily go along with the crowd and the
consequences can put extra strain on your relationship with a
boy/girl. You like guys/gals who have great bodies and good looks,
along with exceptional brain and high grades. It helps if they are
highly athletic or involved in as many activities as you, otherwise
you might get bored! Variety is the key to your love attitude
number.

6

You are warm, loving, devoted and affectionate. Your outgoing,
thoughtful nature attracts many girlfriends/boyfriends to you and
usually some of the nicest guys/gals too. Because of your need to
care, you can end up in a relationship that requires too much
care taking to make it balanced. Since home and family play
important roles in your life, you are unlikely to be attracted to
guys/gals who your parents wouldn't like. Sometimes you have a
slight jealous streak... but it doesn't last long. Some people with
this love attitude number are prone to making harsh judgements of
others, especially when others don't share your set of values. You
are especially attracted to the good looking, boy/girl-next-door
type who is smart as well as a gentle man/woman.

7

Your love nature is thoughtful, poetic, mystical and mysterious. A
few people with love attitude number seven are class clowns, and
they usually attract guys/gals who like to be given a hard time. But
most of you are the quiet, reserved types who dislike calling
attention to yourself. Your type generally attracts guys who feel
the same way you do. Your refined, independent and secretive nature
is very alluring to certain guys/gals. At times you can also be
somewhat faultfinding and a little demanding in your love
relationship and with friends. You are mostly attracted to guys/gals
who aren't like all the rest; a loner easily attracts you. And, if
he/she reads a lot and enjoys learning, he/she is especially perfect
for you.

8

Your love attitude is confident, powerful and exciting. This number
usually makes for a very conscientious student, someone who puts
schoolwork ahead of a social life. However, you also enjoy being a
leader among your classmates and will seek offices or other
positions that enable you to use your leadership skills. Because of
this, you can be somewhat intimidating to certain guys/gals.
You can also be a little too intense, bossy and jealous for your own
good. Your love match is definitely someone who is
smart, handsome and popular. You like quality over quantity
and will usually wait until the guy/gal with the best
attributes comes along.

9

You have a sophisticated attitude that is also generous and
considerate. Your responsible, charitable nature may find you
attracting guys/gals who want someone to confide in or who makes
them feel secure. At a very young age, you developed the type of
personality that makes others feel safe and protected. You will
carry these qualities into your adult years and, down the road,
you'll be a good mom/dad because of them. On the negative side, you
can be argumentative and overly emotional, and you usually possess a
temper that can make everyone run for cover. You like the kind of
guy/gal who is responsible and impeccably dressed and has gorgeous
eyes and a great body. Charm, wit and (of course) brilliance could
make him the perfect guy/gal for you.